I’ve long kicked myself for not accomplishing more with my life. I’ve always felt that I could have done more or been more or experienced more. I’ve come to realize, however, that these feelings stem from my lack of expertise in any one subject. I’m not one that can focus on much for very long. I nearly always grow bored of a particular subject in a relatively short time, no matter how interested I am at the outset. This isn’t always true, but it does have a negative influence on my perception of self.
The thing I don’t seem to take into account is that I have a broad scope of experience in many different areas. A friend of mine once wrote that being a jack of all trades was once a desired job skill while today, well, not so much. For what I spend my days doing, though, it’s not a bad way to go. As I progress in work and towards what I believe to be my call in life, I’m challenged to grow as an individual, but I’m also challenged to grow and learn in a wide range of subjects, which leads me to believe that, perhaps, I’ve been blessed with a personality that is perfectly suited to something I don’t yet fully understand, but it’s much easier for me to take it easy on myself in the process.
That’s not to say that I’ve not made mistakes and that I might not be closer to, if not already reaching, that goal if I’d done things differently, but I can say that I’m one that regularly looks to himself and tries to find something that makes me less than perfect so I can improve personally. I think that’s something to be proud of.