tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-83419253199319420032024-03-14T09:51:58.848-04:00Phani's Ramblings...sometimes there are things in life that are not as clear as black and whitePhanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.comBlogger115125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-75034461668829676222014-11-29T01:59:00.000-05:002014-11-29T01:59:40.692-05:00Growing Up Means Learning What Life Is<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span class="s1">At the brim of intake for being schooled. </span></div>
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<span class="s1">At the cusp of accepting death for nirvana. </span></div>
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My energy and it's constant tussle with everyday mundaneness.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">My disturbed disposition and its burden on my loved ones.</span></div>
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A compulsion to live up the present.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">A tone to set things free.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">A desire to write my own destiny.</span></div>
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That relative truth is an useful lie.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">That truthfulness in a relationship is subjective.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">That truth, if it could exist objectively, is only in my heart.</span></div>
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Never yielding to the scars of my life.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">Never losing the assumptions about the simple nature of right and wrong. </span></div>
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<span class="s1">Never giving up on the purpose of my life.</span></div>
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I will dive in never coming up for air.</span></div>
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I will wait forever searching for myself.</div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0Franklin Park, Franklin Township, NJ, USA40.4391059 -74.53516009999998540.3907679 -74.615841099999983 40.4874439 -74.454479099999986tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-83683776412333631082014-05-01T13:55:00.000-04:002014-05-01T13:54:13.567-04:00The Hopeful Me<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<i>The choices I make define the life I live,</i></div>
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<i>The moves others make recreate their world.</i></div>
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<i>Together the webs we weave,</i></div>
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<i>The decisions we take, get more tangled each day.</i></div>
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<i>Yet, I must persist on an uncertain path.</i></div>
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<i>For every other way seems too logical.</i></div>
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<i>Knowing that hurt is part of love</i></div>
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<i>And taking responsibility for it,</i></div>
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<i>Realizing that when your love moves away</i></div>
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<i>You will only be loved more </i></div>
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<i>For when they genuinely acknowledge your love,</i></div>
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<i>Will turn your love into gratefulness,</i></div>
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<i>And the more grateful they are</i></div>
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<i>The more love will come their way.</i></div>
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<i>Governed by my hopeful heart, I trudge on.</i></div>
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<i>The cynical world, the hopeful me</i></div>
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<i>For I refuse to believe, or accept that this is the end,</i></div>
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<i>Or it will end like this.</i></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-20349800352675894472014-03-01T14:32:00.000-05:002014-03-01T14:33:15.055-05:00It's ALL About How You Want to Remember Things!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Before the pain of betrayal sunk in, </div>
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the love captured every inch.</div>
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And I crumbled in raw pleasure, </div>
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of that entrenched memory. </div>
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At the weight of your words in the past,</div>
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At the seductive power of your skin against mine, </div>
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the sense of betrayal didn’t last.</div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0Mumbai, Maharashtra, India19.0759837 72.87765590000003618.5957917 72.232208900000032 19.556175699999997 73.52310290000004tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-65982398629979977212013-12-17T02:34:00.000-05:002013-12-17T02:34:11.481-05:00My Neglected Truths...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Should I neglect</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">these truths?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For I feel</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am different</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">not special;</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">just unlike usual.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Unusual isn't really</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">a good thing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am part broken,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">part whole.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Many ghosts haunt me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All the time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Not from the past,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">or the future.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Just unacknowledged</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">ideas of me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Floating,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">knowingly.</span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-56727684448665010302013-12-12T08:58:00.000-05:002013-12-12T08:58:03.105-05:00Normal? <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiL76DZ3m546X81_q4sL42rA_faD5a_re7HkjlMCrAy6FxBRO2TdsijkSSZ7bFyql_2wH2oGBD6QcYYCUFbIJiisF6fE7nTIvxnAG1pIEXbaCFcXWAYDoTjQwWJWKirp_PgjHjLCarMuog/s1600/normal12.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiL76DZ3m546X81_q4sL42rA_faD5a_re7HkjlMCrAy6FxBRO2TdsijkSSZ7bFyql_2wH2oGBD6QcYYCUFbIJiisF6fE7nTIvxnAG1pIEXbaCFcXWAYDoTjQwWJWKirp_PgjHjLCarMuog/s200/normal12.jpg" width="193" /></a><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I hate the word normal. I didn't realize how much I hated it until I heard it too many times. And, till it was pointed out to me of course. </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">What is it that one means when they say "normal"?</span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> It is an "ordinary" word that really, truly means nothing. What is normal for me is hardly normal for others? Coincidentally, one might find people who's 'normal' radars fall on along similar lines. But that doesn't happen often, I assume.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Normal doesn't cut in. Normal doesn't fit in. It is a loose word thrown around that means nothing. From being indifferent about it, I have realized I need to be cautious about its random usage. Normalizing any behavior leaves space for negligence and callousness which I do not wish to entertain at this point. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Somehow ordinary doesn't make me half as agitated, though it has a similar ring to it, </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">for it can be used objectively as well.</span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> An undertone of acceptance and submission clouds both the words. But normal fares worse. Much worse.</span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-87196837595888467292013-11-19T23:22:00.002-05:002013-11-19T23:30:56.021-05:00I Demand The Unthinkable!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Some needs are basic and simple. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Others are convoluted and heavy. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">As I drift away from the simple, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I find myself clutching the nuances and complexities.</span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I urge myself to believe that the simple will not do. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I demand the difficult, the hard-to-find, the unthinkable. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Everyone hushs and shushs me. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Tell me I am expecting too much. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am warned of loneliness and detachment. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I hush and shush them in return. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I will not let this go. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I demand nothing short of exceptional. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am willing to give up a lot of mediocre for it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am willing to fight battles for it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It would possibly lead to being labelled crazy. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But I am sure it will be worth it. </span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-22144195987595948022013-11-11T23:47:00.002-05:002013-11-11T23:47:21.817-05:00Sleeping Alone? Good For You!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am genuinely frustrated by people's nature to fake their real being and mask themselves with a style that they desire to have possessed naturally. I am specially annoyed by those who make up their social status by the number of boogie nights they had, it could be with someone they know or some random act of foreplay. Married or Single, these sex thirsty maniacs are fixated on boasting their social status by fictionalizing some of their cheap fantasies. And a rather downgraded version of these few men are those who fake an arranged marriage to be a love marriage. Why does one have to do that? What difference is that ever going to make to their life or mine? Enough I said to be myself; I couldn't for one more minute stand there and listen to that bull-crap. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I believe that a desert is sometimes necessary. Sometimes,
it is what your soul and your body need. A rest. To dream instead of do. My
time with my ex girlfriend gave me jitters even in dreams but for the most period I felt
solace in her company, I felt complete sleeping beside her and that had become
a habit, a comfort. But when we had to move to different cities for career
interests, the dreams started giving way to glimpses of her parting with me, my
nightmares had visions of her being dragged away from me; I literally used to
wakeup in the middle of the night, frantically search my room and on not
finding her, call her and confirm she was safe; maybe it wasn't love, it was
obsession, I was truly n madly missing her by my bedside, and that habit had to
die and eventually it did, for the good or bad. Since that time, I have hardly
slept with anybody for length, and honestly, never felt the need to (sometimes my flatmate manages to creep in, but that doesn't count, does it?). So believe
me, when the body really wants the skin of someone else, it knows perfectly how
to behave. You will look into someone’s eyes, and nature will take over. No
matter how old you are. No matter wrinkles, or norms. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I think a lot about privacy. I realize
privacy is not about what you are doing so much as about what you are not
doing. Privacy is that which you can hide — which, in our modern society, is
not much. Sexuality is completely on display. From where I come, children know
about their parents’ sexuality; parents know about children’s sexuality. Where
is the treasure of silence, of things not shown? Where is the mystery? Our
openness is a good thing, for many reasons (of course!), but it has made
indiscretion the norm. Everywhere, the question of “Who are you?” is answered
with an explanation of sex. This is silly. We’re more than that. We are poetry,
we are floating creatures, sometimes happy sexually, and sometimes in a desert,
even as we share our lives with someone. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes I took pleasure just by
staring at women’s lips. Sometimes, their buttocks. And sometimes, just by
listening to a voice. It is libido, trust me. It is desire. But society doesn’t
recognize this kind of felicity. It’s too much! I’ve learned that most people
mainly want to prove that they are sexually functioning, and that’s all. And strangely, what I have learnt from my experience, people are ashamed to admit that they are alone in their beds, which
I discovered is a huge pleasure.</span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-68650093946186286442013-11-09T12:15:00.000-05:002013-11-09T12:15:02.337-05:00Unmasking Relationships... <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I was trying to think of the 'perfect' relationship the other night and I just couldn't think of one. It's true, everyone seems to be fighting their own battles. But as much as we struggle to float and find a state of contentment, we forget one very simple thing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Social psychology has a concept which is so simple that it roughly translates into an English phrase. We mirror our expectations. Unknowingly, we behave with people like we wish them to behave with us. If we want someone to go out of their way and plan surprises for us, we plan surprises for them. If we like to be cuddled, we cuddle. If we like our space, we give space.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And herein lies the fundamental problem of human relationships. We need to do to a person what that person likes instead of what we like. And in return, communicate clearly what we want them to do for us. Subtle suggestions through behavior don't work often. If you like to be told that you are loved often, merely saying I love you to the person won't help. Instead, just communicate that you would like to hear it once in a while. Likewise, if you think a candlelight dinner is romantic, do not plan that for their birthday or your anniversary. Think of what they like, whether it is clubbing or being with a larger group of family or friends, and plan something around that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Relationships would be much simpler if we asked simply and gave selflessly. This only works in rational relationships where the partners care about each other and are compassionate. But if achieved, it can save many a hearts from ache. </span> </div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-53426617184783281482013-10-14T13:56:00.000-04:002013-10-14T13:56:38.404-04:00My Deepest Secret Made Public!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My tattoo is my deepest secret made public.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It is a confession I carry around on my body. It is a scar I have willingly gotten. It was a spontaneous decision that I over thought for ages. When I got it, I couldn't imagine anything else as my first commitment. The tattoo began as an attempt to embrace the circle of life. It ended up being a way to remember the lessons that a particular period of my life taught me. But honestly, it just was so I was no longer ashamed of my lows and what even I perceived as weakness. Many times I am reluctant to flaunt it. Simply because a tattoo is meant to have so many deep meanings that I am overwhelmed by the questions people ask. I haven't yet found a way to explain why a rose. But I assume I will get there eventually.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It is on my body for life right? So I have time to find the correct words.</span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-27495036214585886672013-10-01T14:28:00.000-04:002013-10-01T14:28:06.707-04:00Whose Power is Greater?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">My reaction, my thoughts around it, my emotions. All crumpled up in a similar fashion come pouring out. It isn't a joy to analyze it later to choose what to change, for clearly, I have learnt little from the previous moment. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">But the familiarity of those wounds, the recollection of those memories, the recognition of the repetition, make it frustrating and revealing. </span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-70341650404283881882013-09-26T16:08:00.005-04:002013-09-26T16:11:38.813-04:00So. That's NOT Exactly Why It Ended.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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We were in love. But we weren't the only ones. Everyone was in love with the idea of us too. We kept getting advice on 'How to make it work?' She loathed advice; such advice ticked her off further. So she resisted listening. She asked me to dismiss it too. But I told her that it wasn't so easy. We weren't the only ones in it. She glared at me and marched out of rooms. The audacity that I include others in our somewhat private, somewhat public love affair! But it was the filthy truth. They, were involved. Not just without our consent but without our knowledge. They judged when we fought; they argued on why we fought. They watched our love grow, too. They gossiped about the bedroom secrets. So when our love affair ended abruptly, like mine so often do, they continued to be a part of it. As unwelcome, unwanted guests.</div>
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It wasn't just our relationship. What happened in that relationship wasn't even the same for both of us. The others drew their conclusions, made their assumptions and retained their side of the story. A story that wasn't enriched with what happened behind closed doors and within our minds. It was a popular tale that they wished to spread from willing ear to unwilling ear.</div>
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So, I wasn't wrong when I had included them in it. For their version would be the one remembered despite her resistance and my submission.</div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-50587241185159854392013-07-15T13:09:00.000-04:002013-07-15T13:09:07.022-04:00The Eccentric Me!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes I wish I could put an instrument into anyone's mind and see exactly what they are thinking. The ability of the mind to dilute the politics in order to sound remotely diplomatic is exhausting. Obviously, I am guilty of this practice too, not all the time though!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Or to take this forward, another option would be that no one could ever say anything that they didn't truly mean. If they did, they would automatically grow mushrooms on themselves. (In my head this sounded funny.) So, if I accidentally met someone I couldn't stand, my facial expressions and words would show exactly this. Often, I cannot control the expressions my face makes in response to a person I don't like. The pointless point I am trying to make is that it is exhausting to decode the "political correctness" of everyone. If everyone said what they truly felt, the pain of figuring out their veiled contempt would vanish. I would be at ease. But I suppose earth would no longer be a happy place. Even though it isn't really one at this point.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am perhaps no longer making sense. But the attempt is to envision a world where people would speak openly. Then murderers, closet dictators, ill-tempered souls, two-faced folks and bigots can be identified easily. And I can proceed to not be associated with them. For now, I have to engage in a strenuous decoding process which quite frankly I am no good at.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">However, I guess I am asking for too much. Maybe I should attempt to practice this honesty for a while. I am bound to ostracize myself for not being socially acceptable anymore. Sometimes, that doesn't seem like a bad plan.</span></div>
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was it a dream? An illusion?<br />
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The edge of pain.<br />
I bury it,<br />
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Incapacity to deal,<br />
pushing it aside,<br />
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Intense living<br />
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-3476428938559117882013-06-09T10:20:00.001-04:002013-06-09T10:20:25.363-04:00My Way of Living Life, Only Sometimes!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="text-align: justify;">To say, I write only for myself is an outright lie. But I admit I write to spend a little more time basking in the immense pleasure it provides me. <i>I write to spend a while longer in a world I wish existed</i>. Writing about realities is often stressful and pain inducing. But</span><span style="text-align: justify;"> it reminds me of my deep connections to the larger than me, life. It deepens my understanding as my thoughts are never as clear as when I write. And that means something as my writing itself often lacks clarity. But I fail to understand the need to always make absolute sense. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes, my writing wanders aimlessly from one strange thought to another. It drifts in the time and space of my creation. I love the feeling that I possess the ability to mold the stories anyway I want. It is something I have created from what I have read, what I have seen, the people I have met, the women I love, and the cities I have been to. And it might be powerless to everyone else who reads it, but it is intimate, powerful and passionate to me. So maybe, I don't write for external benefits, people or accolades. I write to feel that intimacy, every day, to feel a raw and unadulterated connection over and over again. But it isn't easy. Being intimate with something means having my guard down. It means I am vulnerable. I have set myself up for ridicule, mockery and harsh criticism. Honestly, I don't take these very well. I am a volatile and sensitive person. I care deeply about everything I write. I am attached in an intense way with the material I produce. But that doesn't change the fact that others' opinions can make you grow. So I put myself out there. I take that risk. Sometimes, I fail and I pull back into my shell. Sometimes, I can see for myself the potential that could exist. I build, I break and I build again.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Writing for me is my way of living life, sometimes. It is the way I deal with society and its crude ways. I write about my angst, my pain, my happiness. I write so I can empty my mind. I write so I can gain </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">clarity in my thoughts. I write to be able to be. I can push myself a little further to reach my dream of being a good writer. But I struggle a little to acknowledge this. In fact, I struggle a lot.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Even as I scribble these incoherent thoughts, I am struggling between my understanding of political and personal; between the lines I have drawn of private and public. But writing helps bridge these conflicts of interest. </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For that side of me, I need to keep writing. If not in a blog, then just as drafts; At least for myself!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have always felt like I wanted to freeze some moments for eternity or whatever it is that lasts forever. Not just a mental picture of the moment but the emotions and people that comprised the moment. When I look at my childhood photographs, I find the emotions in the photographs always led to long re-telling. Most of the time, I don't remember the people in the frames.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">People change as does everything, I just wanted to grow older.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If I happened to find a photograph at random, on the road or in a house I rented, it would be more of a mystery. The photograph is of no value to me Neither are the memories captured in it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But, I avoid getting to the point and digress.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">If only there was a way to make each memory from every photograph come alive and play a few seconds of those moments before you. Then, when I am 90-years-old and senile, I will still be able to remember the</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But doesn't that take away a little bit from the essence or magic of a photograph. The many layers to it apart from what the frame essentially reveals? I presume so. I cannot help but wish to be a speck on the wall of not just the memories that I have created but also the many others in the photographs that I passively encounter. It just seems like a memorable journey to take, through the frames of people's lives and their memories.</span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-82861542285466779132013-05-28T13:27:00.000-04:002013-05-28T13:27:17.710-04:00Vulnerability is Overwhelming But Necessary<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes you are ecstatic. You know all that you want. Life is a heavenly place. But that feeling doesn't last.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes you feel lost. You run around trying to find your way. Your eyes grow weak in the hunt for the right path. You stay awake in an attempt to map your life.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Just sometimes you share your misery with somebody else. And it makes sense to them. They don't charge you with over reaction. They don't logic life with you. They are in sync with your emotions.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes there is an outburst that is nonsensical. Sometimes there is clarity in every sentence. Sometimes you feel miserable. Sometimes you laugh at the self-pity.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sometimes I write you or he or she. But in reality it is all me. Sometimes I need help to accept this. Sometimes truth is right there but there is reluctance to acknowledge.</span></div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-7885045500861211062013-04-14T11:12:00.000-04:002013-05-03T03:55:33.721-04:00Me. Me. And Me!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 21px;">Because yes, though I am luckier than most in countless ways, I am also stronger. I am infinitely more tolerant, forgiving, emotional and giving. I do things for people without bothering about who gets the credit. I am talented, intelligent, punctual and have a will power of steel. So if in my idiosyncrasies, you see none of these, I feel sorry for you.</span></span><br />
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-33306613295410714222013-03-01T09:33:00.002-05:002013-03-01T12:51:37.393-05:00Fragiility :: The One Constant Thing In Life<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Last month, I bid adieu to one of the most important and charismatic individual in my life. My Grandmother passed away 18th of September, a day I will never forget for many reasons, one of which was the sheer amount of respect her holy corpse was able to receive. The whole episode was like a beautifully assembled pack of cards pulled down by the weight of time in a matter of seconds. 15 days before this, she was on her way to a pilgrim site, Naimisaranya in Uttar Pradesh; she perhaps already knew this was going to be her last visit to a holy site and then it would be her ultimate call up to the heavens. The reason I say this is because of something that happened on the day of her departure to the site. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My brought up and the values instilled in me by her and my Mother are culturally and traditionally orthodox, touching the feet for blessings before leaving the house is some sort of a mandate; but I never believed in it. My gut always told me, if I believe in it, I should do it, else there is no point. And hence, I often am forced to do so; but having noticed my reluctance, my Grandmother stopped asking me to do it. But the day before she left to Naimisaranya, I visited her to say bye; and even on that day, before leaving I did not bend down to touch her feet and take blessings; and at that point, at that very moment something happened that will stay with me for the rest of my life. When I said "Bye Ammamma", she looked at me with teary eyes and said, "<i>Come here, touch my feet and take my blessings, who knows if I will come back from this trip or not, I am old and getting ready for the big journey as the days go by</i>". That to me, is the biggest moment of my life; something I will wear up my sleeves every time I bend down to touch the feet of an elderly. But has it changed the way I think about the whole thing? No. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My Grandmother has seen not one, not two but three of her beloved Men fall to the graves in the last decade. Including her, the four big pillars of the Mahakali family are no more,
but they left behind their moral sense of responsibility and a deep well of
excellence that could by itself overpower an ocean of wisdom. The virtues that my family and more specifically my Grandparents have instilled in me form the fundamentals of my daily being. But the question today is, how important is my belief in these virtues? Is the belief in a virtue more important than the virtue itself? Introspecting this idea yields me different questions.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Could it be how rational thought destroys our soul? Could
it be about the triumph of irrationality and the power that is in that? You
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calendars and we try to predict the weather. But what part of our life is truly under our control? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">What if we choose to exist purely in a reality of our own making? Does that
render us insane? And if it does, isn't that better than a life of despair? But
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what's better is only a matter of how deeply you apply your thoughts to it. If
being happy and content is all that you want in life, then isn't living an
insane life in a world of your own, the perfect thing for you. The problem with
us is that we don't know what we actually want, and when we do, we hate to
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your heart. Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in
their views, and demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your
life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and of
service to your people. Show respect to all people, but grovel to none. Let us
all, and I mean this generation of us all, make our ancestors proud again; let's
keep our differences aside, let's show them all who live their life in hatred,
conflict and cynicism, how family as an entity and society as a change are strengths.</span></div>
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for your life and strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of
living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies in yourself. And
then at the end, when your time comes to die, be not like those whose hearts
are filled with fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray
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James is one of the best players in the league and, in my opinion, when it is all said and done, could be one of the greatest players ever to have played the game of basketball. And yet, at this moment, LeBron James is the most hated athlete in American sport if not in World sport (although, I believe Mourinho takes the world plaudits). If we did not love sports, we would not hate LeBron James as much. He has not sinned against society. He has sinned against competition. And this sounds backward, but it's true: If he had sinned against society, we would have an easier time forgiving him, the likes of Mubarak and Kasab having to get away from people ranting by spending time in air-conditioned jails is a sick modern era's example. We all sin against society at some point but in sports, competition is everything.</div>
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Because LeBron spent seven years in Cleveland and Cavaliers made many half-hearted efforts to keep LeBron happy? An old, fat Shaquille O’Neal, and a non-motivated Antawn Jamison isn't good enough to keep many superstars with a team. When the best player you play with is Gibson, you know you won't be keeping your superstar for long. So, can we blame him for leaving Cleveland? I guess not.</div>
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"The Decision" as they labeled it and the high profile announcement – LeBron could have chosen a better way to exit Cleveland than with an hour-long special on ESPN. But then, maybe he was compelled by people around him, maybe there was a contractual obligation, I do not know. But one thing I probably could do, Feel for him. Maybe on another day he wouldn’t have done it and maybe he regrets it doing as much as many of us hate him for it. Having said that, I believe, and he would too I guess, "The Decision" was a mistake. But how long are we going to talk about it. </div>
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Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-81187034297533829152012-03-04T10:01:00.005-05:002012-03-08T00:09:18.221-05:00Life Goes On...!!!<div style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span ><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><div>Time is a fickle friend. It passes by, no matter what you want. You may want to hold on to it, make it slower, but the clock ticks on. You may wonder how this time shall pass, but worry not, it shall. </div><div><br /></div><div>The terribly unromantic thing about life is that it goes on. It may seem like the world is ending or you may be so happy that you could just die. But you probably won't. It'll pass. Like most else in your life, as my fav dialogue goes... This too shall pass. </div><div><br /></div><div>The human spirit is resilient. More than we give it credit for. Not the cliche spirit like titled by newspapers- the Mumbai spirit and so on. Nope, the very spirit inside you and me. It faces the most difficult times and then adapts so quickly, it seems like it was all a dream. We underestimate our endurance. For better or for worse, we can take far more than we imagine!</div><div><br /></div><div>I wondered how this time will pass. But it did. I'll meet you again soon... very soon! </div></span></span></div>Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-26003652022948884092012-02-29T10:48:00.003-05:002012-02-29T10:52:14.970-05:00My Love for You will NEVER Die :):)<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%;">Sport in all form was my first Love... and I think it's better to make it the only Love... and FC Barcelona is all that I am and I want to be... Love for you will never die... a proud Cule</span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span><span style="font-size: 100%;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span><span ><iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/d5wO0fbOsZo" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></span></span></div>Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-4533969410092867822012-02-29T07:50:00.008-05:002012-02-29T08:15:01.141-05:00Forgive... but Forget??<a href="http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSDBpFI_3QxPlne32uhnfCg1pwW9ao7-N86Z9mwA-PjxOd9Q_ZN" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 265px; height: 190px;" src="http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSDBpFI_3QxPlne32uhnfCg1pwW9ao7-N86Z9mwA-PjxOd9Q_ZN" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span ><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); text-align: -webkit-auto; line-height: 21px; ">Forgiveness is a tricky game. In each one's life, there comes a time when we ask for or are asked to forgive someone who has hurt us. It hurts most when that person is who we love the most. And sometimes, in the name of this love, we forgive. Or do we? Do we truly forgive and forget? Or does the hurt haunt us from time to time, having made a permanent crack in our </span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); text-align: -webkit-auto; line-height: 21px; ">armor</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); text-align: -webkit-auto; line-height: 21px; ">?</span></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); line-height: 21px; " ><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); "><span ><span style="line-height: 21px; ">I know someone who once made that in retrospect can be called a mistake. He did not willingly hurt anyone but at that moment, took decisions that hurt the woman he loved. When he </span><span style="line-height: 21px;">realized</span><span style="line-height: 21px; "> his mistake, he asked her to forgive him. And she told him, she would if he chose to come back to her. She would forgive and forget. And she is the only person I know who truly forgot. In the many years hence, they have been through thick and thin. But never did she ever in a fit of rage or in a weak vengeful moment, throw it back in her face. They moved on to a healthier relationship, with far more trust and understanding than before.</span></span></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); line-height: 21px; " ><br /></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); line-height: 21px; " >I don't believe most of us are that magnanimous. I am probably not either. The ghosts of my past come back often to shake me up and remind me that nothing is permanent.</span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); line-height: 21px; "><span ><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: justify; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 249, 238); line-height: 21px; "><span >But wouldn't it be so much better for our own selves if we could let go? If I could let go? If we could move on... truly forgive and forget. The shackles that bind us, hold us back from loving with abandon again would break. And we could once more fly away to a place where skies are blue and love truly is forever! Or is there a place like that? I wonder!</span></span></div>Phanindra Ketavarapuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01092359103512779926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8341925319931942003.post-63477823982728870242011-12-11T04:59:00.005-05:002011-12-11T05:15:41.887-05:00Zindagi Ki Pehchaan...!!!<div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" >Click on the Image to Enlarge... 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